Idk man. I'm in a really bad episode right now and I'm doing everything I am able to to get out of it and nothing is helping. Granted I'd probably be worse if I didn't try and it does give me some self esteem knowing I am trying. One thing that does lift my mood is socialising probably because I'm an extrovert. However I can't do it for as long as I used to and need more alone time because I get so exhausted. I think I need to up my lithium or something *sigh* or it might be one of those things where I have to wait it out. I wish I had more control over this because rn I feel like I'm walking through wet concrete and my brain is full of cotton wool lol sorry for the rant I don't think I've answered your question!

As for not knowing how to define my mood state this almost always happens at the beginning, mostly because I don't want to admit something is wrong and I tend to get physical symptoms first.