What makes you think you have bipolar? You aren't describing mood changes like the ones that occur in bipolar nor are you describing other symptoms of it in these 2 posts.

Have you ever read about borderline personality disorder? I'm not saying you have it, only a psychiatrist could do that but it sounds like something you might want to look into.

Bottom line: You need to fine a psychiatrist and a therapist so that you can start working on whatever issues are causing symptoms that are making you uncomfortable.