Thanks, everyone, for the repiles. I really appreciate the support. I feel isolated from a lot of people right now, so even virtual hugs are really important to me. I feel like my perceptions of things are really off right now--for example, my obsessions have gotten a bit worse over the past day or so, and small positive or negative things other people do seem very important to me for some reason. So I'm trying to tell myself that maybe this sadness is not such a big deal and will pass. I think whenever I start to feel a tiny bit better I get too excited and start thinking that I'll be better forever. So when I start to cry again it seems like a bigger failure than it is. The worst part of crying for me is when it first starts and feels so awful, like when I have a stomach bug and am about to get sick again (sorry TMI).