I just read your post and somehow i'm able to relate to some things you're feeling. The thing that it seems your past is hunting you, and you can't figure why. It's hard to forget something or someone from your past no matter how you say to yourself that past is past. And that person is living his/her life now. For me, lately i'm thinking why all the people around me seems to be living their lives but i'm left standing on the same ground and still clueless what path i have to pursue. I'm not getting any younger i'm 27 and i feel alone, unloved and unaccepted. But still I know deep in our heart there's still this lil' hope that we can pull out of this depression. I know i can't be of any help perhaps i just want you to know that there's someone who knows how you feel and somehow praying and hoping that we can get through with this. Coz that's whati'm feelin' now, my friends keep distance from me coz i'm way way down there when i really needed someone to help me through.