I don't really have many answers for you biiv but I just wanted to reassure you that it is ok to not post on other threads. I didn't come to this forum for a long time because my depression is mostly in remission and I felt terribly guilty! Not only that - I was afraid of bringing myself down if I came here. For the time being I seem to be coping - so I visit here. But I don't visit every thread and I have finally allowed myself to stop (or at least I try) feeling guilty about that.

You have a right to post any where you want. This is a support forum and when you need the support - there is always someone around to give it.

Seeking love and comfort isn't seeking attention. Not in a bad way in any event.

I'm really sorry you are struggling so much right now. Please know that you are welcome here. We all understand!