Feel so very ,very sorry for you sun no shine. The impression I get from your words is your your husband and your parents sound quite toxic. One thing I think suggesting you go off your meds is wrong. IMHO you should of discussed this with your pdoc first. Not implying you're a terrible person. I meant for your safety sake. Are there support groups including offline you can go to get emotional support? I'm here for you. Hugs!!! I'd do the hearts and teddy thing but no idea how to do that.