I worry that I am in the early stages of addiction but I'm not sure if I'm overthinking it, or what to do. I drink wine almost every night and I look forward to it so much. It makes me feel so many warm positive emotions and it makes things a lot less dull.

This weekend my boyfriend suggested I don't drink at all. It was tough because I kept suggesting it and I really wanted some but I didn't. It doesn't feel like an achievement though because all I can think about now is buying a bottle of wine tomorrow and drinking alone in my room, I really can't wait.

I'm scared that eventually I'll get so used to drinking that "normal" life will to be too boring for me. My dad was an alcoholic as is my uncle, which is a further worry.

On the other hand - another part of me keeps thinking I'm overthinking things and I'm fine. I'm just not sure.

Can anyone identify with these feelings or offer advice of any kind?