Okay so I’m 16 years old and I’ve always had really good grades and a good family life. I’m first in my class, I’ve played two varsity sports since my freshman year (I’m a junior now), I have great friends (who tease me occasionally), and I love band. My problem is that I have a weird obsession (don’t know how else to label it) with my teachers. It all started back in 2nd grade with my teacher. I started acting like her and pretending that I was her and taught my stuffed animals as she would teach my class. I even bought fake glasses like hers so I could look like her.

Now, I still want to be like all of my teachers. I have a positive body image, but not so much a mental one. I’ll dress like one, and use the same sense of humor as the other. I sort of alter myself to try and become these teachers like they’re my role models. I don’t know what’s triggering it, but I just have this overcoming feeling of wanting these teachers to like me, as in a friendly manner. I’ve planned out personal conversations with them, because I don’t have those kinds of conversations with my mom. She’s never done anything to me, but for some reason I don’t feel comfortable discussing personal issues with her. I’ve always held in my emotions, and it has caused a great deal of stress and anxiety in myself. It’s just this weird urge to have my teachers like me and feel connected with me on a personal level.

Does anyone else ever feel like this, or am I just crazy?