Hello Nissala: I'm sorry to read of your struggles. It's difficult enough to be struggling with depression & anxiety. But then to have the economic problems you have piled on as well, just makes everything all that much worse. And also, being 52, you're now entering those years when, at least from my perspective, it begins to get even more difficult to just keep going. Age adds it's own whole set of hurdles. (I'm in the latter half of my 60's.)

I was glad to read that you were able to find a clinic that serves low income people. Hopefully, over time, they will be able to get you onto a medication, or medications, that will help. Unfortunately, as I'm sure you know, this can take some time. I've taken a variety of different antidepressants over the years. The only one I ever found to be genuinely helpful was Cymbalta & it's generic equivalent.

I hope that you will be able to keep climbing, even though that light at the top of the well seems to keep receding. I send warm thoughts your way with the hope that it might be so...