Your words are so kind and wise Time0-- thank you.
It's difficult to feel as important as those that reach a "status",in a situation that is based on support, when I have not.

I don't understand why there is a need to have a "status" in the first place..

..... this is just one of many things in my life that I don't think I'll ever be able to accept or be at peace with.
thank you again for your reply-- Time0-
mandy