Yeah I mean I am very chill about people trying to help each other figure things out and understand, to the best that we can. Sometimes I just feel really lost and like it's pointless, though. I ran out of medication, and yet I am sleeping more? I don't understand. And why didn't the medication help me more to begin with, why was it suddenly powerless as soon as I started my job? Was it ever really working in the first place? It has just been so many times I've gone through the process of like, "Okay so this is it, this is what I have, and these are the words for what I experience, and this is the solution that will lead to the 'normal' that I am unable to tell whether or not I can even recognize." And then poof it's all gone. Sometimes I look at the different forums for the different illnesses and disorders and just feel like we are all the same. Idunno I am going through withdrawal so maybe I'm just not making sense.

It's just like pretty much almost everyone here is on meds and almost everyone here is still suffering / has problems. I'm not advocating everyone dump their meds. I guess I am just like.. disillusioned, maybe. Once again I thought I had it figured out, but I was wrong.