But haven't many of us tried all of those things? I really doubt that most of the people on here discussing their struggles have only tried popping a pill and nothing more throughout their life.

I know I am rambling really bad and probably struggling to come across right (sorry), but I guess my overall feeling is that I feel like I am at a dead end. I have tried therapy, self-help, CBT exercises, having strict routine, self-medicating, etc. Trying official psychiatric medication was the last thing on the list that I hadn't tried yet, and it bombed.

And when I browse the forums everyday I see a bunch of people on medications, who have been in therapy or are in therapy, who talk about CBT, etc and yet here we all are.

It's just grating on the way my brain works. Like there must always be an answer, a solution, I just have to be smart enough to figure it out. And when that's not the case it's just like.. I don't even know.