The current medicine combination that I am on has definitely decreased my depressed moods, but not so much my anxiety. Anxiety is my main complaint when it comes to my mental health.

Here's the thing... I am finding myself "missing" the depressed moods. After much questioning, I have wondered why I would even miss the states that I have previously been in. [Possible triggers] I have been close to ending my life. I have even had my depression manifest in the form of extreme, albeit superficial, self-harm. [/possible triggers]

Why would I be missing my depressed self if I am feeling better? Has this ever occurred to anybody else who is in so-called remission?