Laying here with mind racing do fast. Pictures of harmful actions plague my mind. They won't stop. I'm anxious and really sad. I'm exhausted but wide awake. I want to be home in my own bed away and alone. I've been picking old wounds I need pain or something to focus on! I need to escape I need sleep I need peace. How can I get it? What do I do I feel so lost my mind won't be quiet or rest