Thank you for your reply DepressMe.

I'm so sorry you've felt "you're not worthy" too-- it is so very hard.

yes, I relate to your childhood as well... not good enough, and a source of shame..... I do know those well-- and I'm sorry you do too.

Just for the record-- I didn't write all of the stuff from my past..... there are some things that I don't bring up-- I avoid the darkest.....

Thank you DepressMe--

mandy