Hi Nissala,
Such awful things you're going through... depression, anxiety and money troubles on the top of that. But still you keep on fighting, and that shows one thing: you are braver and stronger than you think, even you may not feel it right now, in the middle of this turmoil.
I really wish I could do something for you, but I'm not in a very good place either, so I can only send you a hug:
Take heart. Things are not going to be this bad forever.