It's good to know someone you can have a light-hearted conversation with and when you have experienced deep feelings of loneliness it's expected to feel refreshed and energized.

But infatuation is a dangerous thing, so watch your step. I see nothing wrong in age gaps, however I think fantasizing about that lady may be too much. I'd also put some critical thinking into that amount of idealization of the youth. As a young person myself, I find it very, very unreasonable.

Sorry if I sounded like I was trying to burst your bubble. Not my intention...