Let's not sugar coat it.

The beginning of addiction is taking the first drink. You are now in addiction....looking forward to the next drink- psychological addiction happens waaay before physical addiction. I call it "romancing the drink", seeing the positive qualities for your life- love for its effects.

Drinking alone is a very bad sign.

Non alcoholics can take a drink and leave it, not giving it a second thought.

Looking at my past to the first drink, I was instantly hooked. I said the same thing...I saw that it did more for me and I felt at ease, warm fuzzy, positive emotions, in control...that was 30 years ago after a 25 year drinking career. 2 weeks sober again.

It's good that you are very self aware. Do yourself a favor, quit while you are ahead. The rest of your life will be centered around alcohol and or drugs. It takes all your money, and your sanity.

Go to AA meetings to hear the horror stories and a better way to live. I've met a many young people who were there to nip it in the bud. They were smart. You are too because you are posting here. Good luck.