It may be that I was anticipating a reaction or an interference. That made me feel as though it was still there. It could be that it was turned off entirely.

One instance of the problem is when I am typing something from a dictation -- someone records by voice a letter and I listen to the recording and type it. Auditory input to short term memory to translation to motor cortex -- repeated every 3 seconds or so. This process shuts down my faculties regardless of how well/effortlessly I am able to preform this task. It happens between the 2:30 minute mark and 3:15 minute mark. This is when I am trying my hardest to prevent this from happening.

Similarly notes taken in a class room environment appear as though the note taker lost interest or developed a negative attitude towards the whole concept of education.

I blame this on the inability to block the theta wave. It should be there perhaps, as a part of the normal functioning of the brain (from what I understand it is involved in short term memory storage) but it becomes erroneously amplified and passed down the line.

It effects my eyesight, my visual cortex. Eventually the audio becomes ominous. Ultimately my motor cortex refuses to type. SO, it is possible there is enough of a shutdown signal for it to be registered on an EEG as being erroneous.

One of the ways I dealt with this growing up was to selectively acknowledge things or select environments that did not present an opportunity for this to occur. In this case I don't think that it would be registered.

An instance of this is when I am driving I get into accidents. A particular accident is when a car is in front of me and I have to look for traffic else where. I would just not record the car in front of me in short term memory -- I rear end the car in a rather careless and rude fashion. Likewise I would use any wiggle room available to my advantage in order to achieve the goal without "putting forth the effort" (why should a pariah bother?) or by completely disassociating material and then re-associating it.

The disassociation thing is where I have gotten into some trouble. In order for this to work in the real world all concepts have to be based upon reality. Real life experiences. My attitude is very down to earth. All concepts have to have a practical purpose in my life. So fantasy, religion and maligned ideas have to be rejected. I can't follow rules if they do not apply as well formed methods. This means deleting many things learned or projected to me. If I have to scrutinize every concept prior to using it then I do not appear to be behaving in a seamless manor. The methodology makes me an invaluable asset but the acceptance of others is usually based upon ability not disability. Take away the motivation and enthusiasm and I am outed pretty quickly.

So anyways if I am not careful and I pick up the bible for instance or I come up with some cockamamie idea -- say while I am taking medication. When I go off the medication I revert to my older means and ways (after all there is nothing else I can do). Now I believe that fiction is fact and I begin to pursue this.

Even worse is when I apply the concept to something for which it is not appropriate. This leads also leads to disaster in relationships. I try to explain that just need to rework the formula, many apologies. Other people don't see this as an acceptable response.