ChipperMonkey - I completely understand. Fortunately at the time of my 10yr reunion I did have stuff to show for myself. But.... I could not handle one now for the very reasons you listed. I just could not tell people about the state my life has become. In a way I am going through that now as I write my holiday greeting card letters. There are those from school I only stay in touch with this time of year that I couldn't possibly disclose my life to.