First of all you are worth so much more. To answer your other question to me from earlier, "yes I did turn into Jekyl and Hyde when I was drinking" but you know there were underlying issues. They were feelings I TRULY felt but was too afraid to say but NOT afraid to say when I was drinking.

Which MEANS he REALLY meant those things. Its just my opinion after all. but by breaking you down, calling you these things, being rude, disrespectful and mean aren't really alcoholic traits. Some alcoholics get really depressed and some get really happy and need to feel that high all the time.

I guess the point I am trying to make is, he sounds just mean. No one deserves that. I know it hurts, it really does. I can tell the hurt from your words. I understand your pain I really do. I give you A LOT of credit for standing up for yourself, even if you feel like taking it back after the fact. You know he was bad for you. You know you deserve better, deep in your heart.

Please tale good care of yourself and have a good session tonight