Rarely but every once in a great while we do get out. Again we talk about on the surface stuff.
With 21 yrs of being married to someone whose is mentally I'll & sometimes it's severe I think I've burned my hubby to a crisp. He doesn't wanto hear about my woes, my thoughts, my heart desires. He wants to talk about retirement, work & social issues. I just play along. I know I've hurt him a great deal & saying my true feelings, that I'd like to find my own way in the world would either crush him or he'd get extremely angry & use my kids as weapons. I don't know which.