I was abused by an older brother. The Abuse began at 12. He was 16. He would show me playboy magazines and others and I would we would both become aroused and he would have me play with his. We would look through the pages and it felt real good. He would usually have me lay down and lay on top of me and look at the magazine until he came. To this day when I see naked women on the internet or magazines my brain thinks of erections. So the first time I saw a porn movie it was very very interesting to me. I feel guilt about this to this day and I am in my fifties. I am straight. Anyone else experience anything like this. Any input would be appreciated. Thank you.