Did the T tell you the cause of your PTSD? Your Mom seems to have it too from what you've described. I am sorry that she isn't there for you emotionally. Having had to grow up on my own also, I know how difficult and stressful that is. You do not mention having any friends and that also concerns me. Since you were diagnosed with PTSD, I take it that you are continuing to see the therapist for treatment? If not, why? Ideally, I'd see someone other than my Mom's T because it's better to keep matters separate.

Just because the most important people in your life - your parents - cannot be there for you does not mean that you and your life are not important. You are important and so is your life. That's why I'm answering.

Having had neglectful parents myself, you sound a lot like me when I was starting college. It did just not seem important and I'd try but could not finish things. Looking back, I'd say my biggest error was going to college to please others rather than really exploring my interests. I had picked a major that I was not suited for; it took a while to find a school that was a better fit. Relax, you are young so all is not lost. But, don't make the biggest error of all - wasting time. It's always better to do something than nothing. Doing things and trying new things at this time of your life is important because you will learn what you're good and not so good at. You will learn what you enjoy and what you don't enjoy. Since you are vague on a career, I'm going to suggest that you take a part-time job. You will meet people and you will learn. Find a job where people your age work so that you can make friends and socialize with them. In fact, put the focus on you: finding something that you like or are good at, making friends and building a social life. Since you are career iffy, try applyng for a social service job - there's often less competition and good benefits. Finally, if you find a job that you like and - MOST IMPORTANTLY - are working with people who you like - STAY THERE. There is nothing better than working with people who you like and who like you.

I hope this helps. All the best to you.