Thank you all for saying this. The part that worries me is, a drunk speaks the truth. I've heard that before. So when you say, he really MEANS those things... When he calls me selfish and a liar and all these things - he really means that, he thinks I am those things?

I've never in my life before this man, been called either one of those things. I take pride in NOT being a liar. I always have, I'm one of the most outspoken people there are. If I have to lie to save someones feelings, I will. For example, do you like my shirt? No. But, I'm not going to say No... I'll say something like "It looks great on you" or something, b/c I'm not saying, No I don't like it - but I'm paying them a compliment for something they obviously LIKE. Does that make sense? I'm not a liar. I'm certainly not selfish either. Of course the things he tells me I lie about, are when I speak of what he does and how he behaves.

Yes, I'm a very lonely person. I have low-self esteem. I have a couple friends, but they are busy in their own lives... so it's not like we spend a lot of time together. One of my friends, we tend to get together often enough - try weekly, but sometimes not. My family is going through their own hardships right now. So, I keep my distance, and come as needed or offer to help how I can every day.

He texted me about 4 hours ago - asking something stupid, he already knows the answer to - knows it better than I know it probably. I ignored him. I've yet to hear back. I think this is how I'm going to have to do it. I want him to once and for all know he hurt me and I'm done. I just don't know how.

I'm looking for Al Anon groups tonight. My therapist suggested same thing today. I was excited I knew what he was talking about. I said, yes - But, I think I'm already done with this guy. I'm pretty sure I am. He said, yeah but he did enough damage already to wear off on you. Whatever that meant.