<font color="#000088">I think you really need to be honest with your T, even if it means having to be hospitalized. Atleast you'll be safe, even if your hospitalized. That's what thier there for, is to help keep you safe. Your T. isn't going to get mad at you, he/she will actually respect you more for your honesty. I just think that would be the best thing for you to do for your own safety, so you don't continue to harm yourself any worse than you already have. Or make things worse for you than they already are. But it's up to you whether you really want the help or not! Or if you want to continue doing what your doing, and risk causing permanent damage, or worse!
I'll be here to support you either way! I won't give up on you! ((((((gostryter))))))</font>