Ok, I find it most displeasing and ironic. I would attract creepy old men and women or just creepy people, preteens or people my age that just like no I don't like you. Stop infatuating over me and you don't know me so you don't love me. It's most dreadful.

I find people who are too drastic to me, are not anything to my liking and especially with those who look like they are getting off to locking me up in cage look in their eye.

I find it funny I can't get a girl I actually like who I like and admire, but all these weird people will talk about how great I am in a very unsettling way. It's like why do I get I'm above average in attractiveness, but no girl would talk to me even if I initiate conversation and I won't act like a needy jerk or a pushover. I find it weird, that I don't want a mate at all. Everytime I talk to someone they expect me to. I know this post is starting to sound contradictory, but it isn't my point is. I can't impress one person I do like ever. I end up settling and it's always disasterous. I've not dated in 3 years I'm keeping it that way my closest friends always have a new gf all the time. I find it unfortunate they have much more experience than I do. It feels rather depressing, I don't date much of anyone. I want to date people, because I want the experience of the date itself and experience for more than one person. I'm not looking for any settling down for along while. It's sad, these gross personalities like to rear their way into my life.

I don't like anyone really. I'm the guy who rather be chivalrous when I feel like it and when I do like the person. I'm no way obligated to show it. I won't kiss or lick anyone's boots ever. I'm firm stubborn and strict on myself and if they don't like it they can piss off and let me live on without them.

I prefer this way over the other way around. I was stupid and foolish I never cared about my own mental well being. I set my standards much higher, because I want to. I won't lower anything, because I'm not settling ever. It won't happen to me, because people have different intentions every time than me. Specifically they want children too fast, they want to move on with the relationship too quickly, and they always either all or nothing or they just push me away. I hate this sexist win lose phenomena in modern relationships that are mostly one sided crappy friends.

I'm in no rush and rather I don't care anymore. I do not want to be lonely anymore, but if I had my certain needs met I wouldn't want love ever.

I will be a great host and hospitality person to someone I like, but I won't show my gratitude unless they have offered me their intent they won't hurt me initially and I don't do that very easily accept people. I never bring it up first thing anymore I won't talk about my past unless they ask. I won't talk about anything personal unless I find them trustworthy and they are exciting to talk to. They have to give me a reason to trust them before I say anything.

I have my own mental illness problems and I won't let myself be vulnerable for anyone ever. I will always win and the other person can call me a **** all they want. I'm ok with that, and I'm ok with being alone if it's must happen. I've survived and lived accordingly without someone all this time. I wouldn't need one person to tell me anything how I should feel or be in my life.