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Originally Posted by d.o.a.
I only just realised that the fact that we're none of us guaranteed anyone that would love us scares me a great deal.. There's no guarantees I won't live my life alone  It just seems really sad to me that I'd die alone.. I only have one friend left after having been ill for a few years.. What if she decides to leave as well and I never make new ones! It's just really.. SCARY.. |
I know, but after realizing this. I chose to take it in pride and choose to be more selective and not let another person define me. I let myself define me and if the person compliments me great and if not I'll drop them asap no matter how serious it gotten very easily.
I feel I'll live life alone possibly too, maybe because where I'm at or what I'm doing, but I've came to the conclusion what if I accepted that living my whole life alone isn't a bad thing at all. It makes everything else much easier.
Making friends is easier to some places and people you meet mutually than others. Rather I can't make much friends other than 90% of superficial acquaintances or people who don't care to go any further than one or 2 times hanging out or going to an event or party or just coworkers. That's it. My true friends all left me in some way.
I stopped caring about people so I can stay sane. I don't care anymore if people don't like me. I don't like them, because they're so focused on me and just should leave me alone, but other people don't talk to me most of the time and it frustrates me in the predicament I'm in, but if I had more control in just interactions alone. I don't even need friends, or love anything. I can always have a new experience every time good and bad from all the new people I meet even if I do and don't like them.
I prefer that over anything now. It's the easiest to attain.