Hey Blue. I'm here pretty much just to back up everything CANDC is saying, and also to add that I am really sorry you're feeling so much hurt right now. I feel like I can kind of empathize with you, because precious few people in my life really try to understand me, either. John Green says to "imagine people complexly," and while I try my utmost to always do that, I find that hardly anyone else ever even tries. It makes me really angry at humanity sometimes too, and other times just really really sad. But anyway. I'm lifting up a quick prayer for you right now, and I wanted you to know that I think I do understand a lot of what you're saying. It's both infuriating and heartbreaking.