With what you're going through, you probably cannot find anyone to resonate with, and when your peers at college are happily chatting away, presumbly talking about shallow stuff, your probably thinking deeper thoughts and getting frustrated with them because you cannot connect with them because of their shallowness.

This isn't anything to do with you, I was pretty antisocial at college because I was going through ****, and needed people around me that understood, people who I could talk to, but at the time I had to pretend I was 'normal' just to try fit in with them, and I hated them for having such happy lives when I was in so much pain, and hated them for not seeing my pain and reaching out to me - at college I was a target for bullying, because I needed to fit in with them, put it was like jamming a square peg in a round hole.

People aren't as boring as you think, when you get to know someone well, layers and layers come off, the shallowness is just on the surface with the majority of people, and small talk is just a way of connecting with people without getting really deep.