I am terriffied of him, less so now after 5 years. I find him physically intimidating as he is well over a foot taller than me. But most of all i am afraid of the words. People in the past have manipulated me with words until I didn't which way was up. People go on about the payment for a service as a power differential i think the real power is in words and feelings both off which I lack. I should say the lack of using words to express feelings. It keeps me from fully trusting him nut he kkknos that.