First of all, welcome to the world of being able to post your true feelings. Your post was most interesting to read and I felt your pain as you described your trials. I wish I had some wisdom to give you concerning love, however I tend to have to agree with Shakespeare. As life goes on it doesn't get any easier, just different. Keep writing and talking it out. You have already proven that you don't give up easy and who knows what the future will bring. Wishing you the best in your career and your love life, D