i just dont know anymore
i just think everyone wants to leave irl they dont want to be around someone who is sad and hurt im damaged goods they hate it they try and ignore it or they make jokes about it that crush me why dont they care i want someone to care i want them to understand i tell them that their jokes hurt me and not to do it that it triggers me and pushes me over the edge and yet they still do it they think its funny to see me lose it and get so angry and get so sad why why why why why im glad that they are leaving id rather be alone if no one irl is gonna give a damn then i dont want anyone
im at the edge of a cliff ready to jump off maybe i will hit the side a few times and drown in the water far below maybe i wont