I cancelled this week's appointment with my therapist because I'm feeling so hurt. I'm considering quitting therapy with her altogether. I've worked with her for 5 years and I've trusted her and depended on her and she's gotten me through some really tough times.

But, Sunday, she let me down and I don't know how to recover from it. See, my S.O. dumped me on Sunday. Needless to say, it was a very traumatic day.

I texted T what had happened and she knows me well enough that she could understand how overwhelmed I was with surging emotions. And she knows that I don't expect 'therapy' by text.

But, I guess what I do expect is a simple quick text telling me that she knows of my suffering and is looking forward to our meeting this week.

This is a response she's made to me many times in the past.

But, Sunday - nothing. So I felt a double whammy. I was abandoned by my S.O. AND abandoned by my T. I am heartsick.

I've already texted her to cancel this week's appointment. And she asked, "Are you sure?' I decided to be honest and said, "I'm mad at you." Her reply, "I'll keep the slot available if you change your mind."

She has been my emotional support for quite some time and now I feel like she's kicked me in the teeth.

This double abandonment is crushing and of course, my T would encourage me to come to her to talk about it. But I don't feel I can trust her now. Her actions spoke volumes.