I have been in a relationship for 2 years now and for the past year I have been battling a really strange issue with him... he thinks I have a drug problem which is completely unrealistic as there aren't ANY facts that would back this up. I am a VERY open person and share literally everything, I have nothing at all to hide. He's had issues in his past with people lying to him about drug issues and I think maybe he is scarred from it but its so completely absurd and makes no sense to the point I get REALLY hurt and angry over it. I cant stand false accusations or having to defend myself for something I am absolutely not doing. I have a great job and a good head on my shoulders, I woudnt be able to have either if I had some crazy drug problem. The last time he made this accusation was about 2 weeks ago and since then I haven't been able to get myself back to they way I felt about him. Each time this happened before, I would get angry, talk it out, explain why it makes no sense, he agreed, I would warn him that the relationship will eventually fail if this continued and now that it's happened again, I feel I've lost respect for his judgment on things and I feel that I have lost attraction, when just a minute before he made this last accusation, I felt crazy about him... and now I feel more lost than anything. He took it to the extent of asking me to get a drug test to prove it! I will NOT take a drug test for him to prove anything and if I did, the relationship would still be where it is now with how angry I am about it. Even if he saw the test come back clear I'm certain he would find a reason to say how it must not have been a test that tested for EVERYTHING, or maybe I altered it some how, its absurd. So he agreed with me on that and said he's ok with me not taking the test.
I am constantly battling the thoughts of should I stay and work through it or should I go. We are now arguing a lot more... struggling with communication and being on the same page. I don't know how to get back to the way I felt before this last accusation... even though I feel like he might finally get it, I deep down feel that he must not be very bright and I feel if someone could make this accusation of me, they must not know anything about me or who I am as a person, which is a huge disappointment and let down. Not sure what to do and he's hurt and doesn't want to lose me or what we share together and I'm just lost and not myself towards him anymore...