Max,
Where are you now? Maybe home isn't a good place for you, but there are people who can help. Here's a webpage with some places you can call.
Youth Helpline Or just call 1-800-999-9999. You don't have to deal with this all by yourself.
Wendy
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“We should always pray for help, but we should always listen for inspiration and impression to proceed in ways different from those we may have thought of.”
– John H. Groberg