Hey skysblue. I remember you. Long time no see.

So... I will echo the other poster who highlighted how cryptic you are being in your messages. This is totally a habit I have and I am not in any way judging you for it.

If I were you, what I'd be wanting is for your T to RESPOND. To DO something. To say "No! Don't cancel because you're upset. You should come in." I crave having someone else urging me to take care of myself, and when I have the urge to talk to my T like this it's because I want him to step in and take care of me at a time when I am feeling helpless and vulnerable.

You're kind of testing her here -- testing her to see if she knows what she did wrong, testing her to see if she really cares about this self-destructive desire to be alone when you really should be going to her. I don't think I need to tell you that this sort of testing usually doesn't end well. I think you probably know you shouldn't do it, but it can be really hard to resist. Especially when you feel like SHE is the one who should be making this right. You're down and out, why are YOU having to fix this?

But I'll put this other spin on it: you deserve to get an answer about why she didn't respond to your text, in person. If it wasn't your T's policy not to answer texts, then this is NOT the one to skip. Not ok on her part -- but as others have pointed out, she may not have even gotten it, or deleted it somehow, or something really stupid like that. Either way. You deserve an answer, and you deserve an opportunity to settle this one thing, so that you can deal with your partner dumping you.

On that note, I'm really sorry about that. I'm sure things are really hurting right now.