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Old Nov 10, 2015, 03:58 PM
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Originally Posted by Linus VanPelt View Post
A couple of days ago, I was in a really bad place emotionally. My depression was beating the hell outa me and I was lower than low. So, I came in here and started typing a new thread. I layed it all out; my psychological issues, how I got this bad, and how much I needed to get to a better place. I wasn't looking for answers. Just a shoulder or two to cry on. When I was done typing, I read over my sob story, decided that all I was doing was whining, and deleted the entire thing. I didn't want to waste anybody's time by them reading it. That was a mistake. All I did for the rest of that day and the following one was lay in bed and stare at the ceiling. I didn't look for the support that this site was designed for.
SO, if you find yourself in a bad place, talk to someone. If not here, then a friend, a family member, a therapist, someone that can be sympathetic to your situation. While all of us here are suffering from a psychological condition, we are all still individuals with individual problems and needs. If you can give support to another person, either in here or at home, you should allow yourself to receive that same support. Don't cheat yourself of the help you deserve because you feel that you're bothering others or don't deserve the attention.
Thank you Linus. I tend to feel like my issues are just me whining or being pathetic. But I need to vent today. I feel very tired and low. I have started smoking again after almost 8weeks of being smoke free. I'm so tired and its the only thing that wakes me up and helps me function. I'm so tired of feeling like this. so hopeless and discouraged.. My house is a disaster because I am never home or don't have enough energy to clean. It just is so hopeless. I am constantly on the run doing stuff for other people because I am a nurse and help my parents with their groceries and other things. I work 2 jobs and fall asleep if I sit too long. I am starting to binge spend, binge drink, binge smoke and binge eat. I have talked to my therapist about most of this. But I just feel so damn worthless and hopeless today. ah well enough of my whining.
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