First, let me say that many years ago I was dx’d with DID – when I was in my 20s and trying to finish college. My T moved and the transfer to another T didn’t quite pan out, so there was no real resolution to my DID issues. It’s been a very long time since I’ve been in therapy. This summer, my primary care physician referred me to a psychologist for testing because I complained that I was losing words…couldn’t seem to ever get to the end of a sentence because I couldn’t think of the words I wanted to say. Testing noted no sign of early dementia, Alzheimer’s, etc., but the psychologist thought I was maybe mildly depressed. So, off I go to a T to help me find my words.

New T: (I have not revealed the DID dx from years ago) I'm dealing with some very stressful issues in therapy right now, but my last session was really pretty easy on me, considering. At some point toward the end of our hour, I lost touch with my T. I recall that she asked me what happened...? What? All I could think of was to tell her that I guess I just shut down. She mentioned a little later that she was concerned about where I go.

I don't have a dx of dissociation or depersonalization...or not until my last session (who knows what she thinks now?). We all dissociate sometimes (i.e. highway hypnosis, etc.). My concern is that I do this in therapy, which makes it difficult for the therapy process to work. I'm just chalking this up as one instance. Should I be keeping track of possible other times that I'm not connected? How do I do that when I live alone and am pretty isolated right now? (Sorry this is so long…)