I think i did have when i was 6... This has been a bad memory all my life.
But it wasn't that bad when i was in love with my ex and we did those disgusting sex. But now that we are broken up, and i feel like i was being cheated for sex. And i'm regretted for how stupid i was all those times. Beside than this, i've hooked up with a wired guy just after i broke up with my ex, but i did nothing, juz lil kissing n touching, cuz i stopped him and dumped him striagh after that, but i felt that it is still so disgusting and i hate guys more n more. And untill now, my reaction toward these stuffs are going worse n worse. I hate guys, but i don't think i love same female either.
Yes, my parents are quite traditional, they don'n accept sex before marriage, so we never had chance to talk about it, maybe not untill i'm married.
So what is actually going on with me?