I followed Thor's advice here and asked for a referral to a pain clinic. I now have meds and am feeling relief. Just saw them today and even though I was reluctant I told them about past marijuana abuse but that it was long ago and Im old and boring now and he said you look like a good guy, Im going to trust you. PHEW! I was just paranoid if I lied and then they found out, I'd look bad. They also did a urine analysis(not just for me but thats just standard there apparently) which I liked cause then I dont have to worry if they believe me or not. I'll have proof that Im old and boring now

Life isnt perfect of course, even with them Im still in some amount of pain but its an amount I can cope with and I hope sleep with. I cant find the words to express the gratitude I have for the responses I got when I was mid freak out but thank you to everyone.