I too have BPD. I seem to cause drama wherever I go and in every relationship. But one thing I'm wondering, you mentioned you were distant from your daughter. Any chance of post partum depression? Have you discussed this with your bf? Let him know you don't mean mistrust him and that you just can't help it right now. Maybe you both can seek counseling together. I'm ALWAYS wondering who's texting my bf. Always asking him about other women because some girl made a comment on his facebook or something. Truth is, I'm the one with the bad history because of manic episodes and my BPD. So my paranoia comes from my own mess ups too. It's hard to admit to your bad actions so at least you're making that step!

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
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