Omg! U nailed it. I'm feeling the ExACT same way!! U mentioned narcissist and my therapist feels he is a sociopath. I spoke with my therapist yesterday and i explained to her that i could have good intentions for my day like deciding to get up and go shopping and all of a sudden i'll just get angry it could be anything from a long line to someone staring at me and i"ll just get angry and go home. She asked the million dollar question..."do u think u are depressed"? I said YES. She recommended i talk to my dr about an anti depressant. These liars come into our lives and seem to ruin it. Lies from day one. Since he's been gone i've found out so much!!! i think about what i found out about his past relationships fathering 2 kids elsewhere while he was married. I think he used his ex wife badly credit and money wise. I should be thankful he's gone and stopped calling me but i feel ruined as if he's gonna change for the next woman but this is a 46 year old man. If using and lying to women has been his operation then why would he change for her. Along with myself im sure he's had other women who were good people but he ruined them!!!