Welcome to PC. You have overcome so much in your life. I hope you can appreciate how impressive that is. I am sorry that you are now finding yourself having difficulties in your work and your personal relationhip. Depression can be so hard for both people in a relationship. You write beautifully would it help to give your boyfriend a copy of what you have written or write something for him? Maybe he is struggling to understand what you are going through and in turn became hurt by some of your words/actions.

I hope you find the words you are looking for. Please take care.

BB