So, I have gone through four phases so far with this whole ADHD thing.

Phase I: ignorance/bliss (childhood to about 21 yrs)
Phase II: denial (21 yrs to 23 yrs)
Phase III: acceptance (23 yrs to 24 yrs)
Phase IV: doubt (24 yrs - present)

In Phase I, I knew nothing of ADHD. I have never even heard of it before, or if I did hear about it, it didn't concern me. I was just a weird kid with strange habits that I thought made me unique and thus were cool. I didn't talk to people a whole lot.

In Phase II, I started to talk to people more often. Eventually I had a bf. After dating for over 2 years, my bf insists that I have ADHD because I act just like his cousin who has been diagnosed with it when he doesn't take his meds. And other reasons, according to my bf, include me not taking turns talking, getting caught up in things so much that I don't recognize him talking to me or trying to get my attention, zoning out a lot mid conversation, going off on tangents frequently, etc.

In Phase III, I began having difficulties with working. I could not focus anymore. As much as I tried forcing myself, I could not. I would keep micro-sleeping frequently as I forced myself to continue working. (I have had the micro-sleeping thing happen before in boring high school classes, thus my reason for intentionally sleeping through the boring parts of my classes. I got away with it because I had good grades - only got in trouble once or twice that I can remember). I started to believe my bf that I could have ADHD now that I was having serious difficulties and struggling. It took another 8 months before I got a diagnoses and medication, though. The medicine (stimulant) helped me significantly. I feel so much better, and more relaxed, after starting it.

Now that I am doing better, I don't think the problems are that noticeable and a recent visit with a psych doctor made me question my diagnosis, which leads to Phase IV. I still have problems with recalling memories right away which is probably why she didn't suspect it. (I was on my medication, and all of my memories of problems due to ADHD were stored away at the time of the visit).

Now, does this sound like anything familiar to anyone? I want to know if I am doing the right thing by taking medicine for ADHD. I am actually quite afraid of stopping it, though would like to eventually. Last week, I was unable to get my prescription filled in time due to my doctor being on leave, and went 3 days without it. During that time, something scary happened at night. I repeatedly woke up not being able to breathe when lying on my back. Each time I woke up was scarier and scarier because I was in sleep paralysis looking at my bedroom but unable to move and breathe (jerking my neck violently in my sleep-mind is what allowed me to "snap out of" the sleep paralysis - it didn't jerk in real life, though). Sleeping on my side helped me stay asleep, but hurt my back. This happened for 3 nights in a row. It stopped happening once I resumed my medication, and I was able to sleep on my back again.

Has anyone else heard of this happening before?