Today we gonna meet.
I talked to her only once with emphasize about the sex part,
She said it was very stressful time in her life and I should be understanding,
she also said at the same time she cant promise anything about the future.
I prefer to wait about bringing her to my place cause I am going to renovate the place.
she is not bossy just afraid of intimacy, I think shes the lonely avoidant type, maybe shes afraid to get hurt, I get the sense on each time we meet that she opens up more.
what bothers me three things:
1.the frequency of our dates.
2.I got us one time a special beverage to experiment we have fun, After a month I noticed it was less then we drank then I asked her, She said maybe she drank she dont remember. It doesnt have such a good taste. you drink it only to get high.
3.she smoke some weed once in a while.
all the above make me suspect maybe something is going on.
I really care for her but I am afraid to get hurt too, Right now this type of relationship
is fine for my kind of lifstyle but I dont know her intentions.
I think cheating is not an option because before the first time we slept together she was very nervous,and it wasnt so fast. maybe I have a bit of a trust issue cause ive been cheated before, but clearly we have some communication problem between us.
I would update after.