A group of classmate took me and a guy buddy in for a lab project, thought I was lucky to have a group.

Guy friend reminded me that we were taken in with a condition that we listen to them and let them take the lead, as it would be a final chance for both of us to "redeem" our worthiness. My mood turned 180 degrees, and I became angry at those group of people, and classmates who used to be with them.

The following morning, I couldn't wake up with a smile for the rest of the day. It was really dark day, that I tried to help the group with lab practical, and they told me off for toggling the variables for the pump. I could not help it, I was pissed by how slow they worked for their lab practical. Instead of going balls deep into decreasing the variables, they took their time to decrease the flow rate by 10ml/min every attempt. They have these kind of selfish attitude against letting others having a chance to learn.

At the end of the day, I was still in foul mood after being told for "anyhow touching stuffs" when I clearly understood the instruction and the experiment, but just restricted of my freedom as I was let into a group under a condition.

It is one of the rare occasion I really hated humans this much to keep my rebellious attitude under control, and I lost my mind and was cursing under my breath. I was filled with anger, that despite paying attention to my inhaling and exhaling, I still could not calm that pacing heartbeat and intense breathing down. I even questioned myself when I saw my crush, " Why did I even fall for her in the first place, everyone's a fraud with a mask thicker than make-ups"

Too much anger built up today