Steve dream again. Wake up feeling bad because no matter how I try, he just doesn't love me. I just learned there's Relationship OCD. I obsessess, play it over and over, imagine every conceivable scenario where the result might turn out with him loving me, and it never does! I can't even make him love me in my dreams! I feel so dumb about this. This is such a waste of my brain, time, emotions. This must be some actual condition because it just makes no sense.

It just really sucks to wake up in a sad mood all the time.

I never got help from therapy or meds, so I'm trying to write about it. Maybe when it's written befor me I'll get it all out and stop, or I'll obsess and whine forever. Sorry readers.