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Originally Posted by guiltier65
Thank you Linus, I did take off this weekend and went out of town with my husband. But all I heard when I came back was how difficult shopping was without me which left me feeling even guiltier for leaving. I feel so trapped. Also today is Veteran's Day which sucks because it reminds me of my time in the army when I was raped by a superior. No charges were ever filed because it basically was labelled as acquaintance rape before that term existed. I am reminded once again on this day, that though I served; all I have to show for it is a messed up psyche and a lot of residual anger and heartbreak. I feel so lost today. my chest hurts and it's hard to breathe. Thanks for listening to my pathetic saga.
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This is not a pathetic saga! This is your life and it is important! The military, while needed and appreciated, can be very abrasive and cold to the feelings of it's ranks. What was done to you was awful and it's disgusting that it was swept under the rug so easily. But, that can't be your only memory of your time in the army. Look for all the bright moments and they will cast out the dark ones. And so far as your parents giving you a hard time about going away for one weekend, remind them that they don't need to worry about grocery shopping if they're in a retirement home. 😉 Believe me, I know. I took care of my mother-in-law after she fell and couldn't take care of herself anymore. Every once in a while, she forgot that I'm an individual with my own needs and not a robot there to serve her. I'd have to reminder her that she could get around the clock attention if she were in a nursing home. That would help for a little while. I'm not saying to do the same thing as I don't know your parents but they need to be reminded that you are there for them out of love and not out of responsibility.