I just need to get this all out in a place where people won't judge me but who actually understand and won't just say, "it'll pass" or,"just think positively" or even worse, "think about others who have it worse than you." I know others have it worse than I do. That doesn't take away my severe depression and my constant desire to want to end it all. I don't want to feel this way. I hate feeling this way. I take my meds and see pdoc to try new meds. I see my T and she knows how awful I feel. I try to get out of this funk and nothing is helping. I fall deeper and deeper as life keeps throwing s**t at me. Serious, life altering crap like losing my house, deaths, hospitalizations of family and friends, loss of pets and more. I can barely get out of bed and get to work. In fact, I've taken many days off lately. When I'm not working all I do is stay in bed. My house is a mess, I don't eat and have no food in the house, I can't do simple errands. All I do is cry and breakdown whenever anyone asks how things are going. I don't know what to do. I really don't think I can keep on going like this. How does anyone get through this when it seems like therapy and meds aren't working?